Wednesday, 2:30 at night
Dearest sweet love:
Your Sunday letter came this morning. I was glad, but sorry to learn that peter was frightened when the baby was in the car with Coryell. You must remember that Coryell is a little thoughtless.
I have been felling that I've gone through this experience of suspended animation- completely unhappy, just working to allow the time to pass, with not hope that anything amusing can occur- before, and now I've remembered. It was during the year I spent without you in Pasadena. I wouldn't go for rides with Paul and his mother on Sundays (except on rare occasions) and I felt that the only thing worth doing was work, since I wouldn't be happy doing anything as so what I did do might was well be productive.
I rose at 11, bathed, came to the Lab. and got your letter and conducted my informal discussion group, had lunch, came back and wrote letters and did odd jobs, had tea and seminar (with Neurath speaking- I disturbed him by saying I didn't understand his equations, which then turned out to be all wrong), came to the Lab., and wrote 21 pages of Chapter VIII. VI is only half done (45 pages), but I've gone on to VII because I'm lecturing there.
Jack came back yesterday. He had been to Penna and then New York. He brought me one apple, which was very good- was that not nice of him?
You must be happy, little sweet love of mine. Don't worry and don't be despondent. Remember that this Paddy adores you and that we can make out of our lives whatever we want- you must tell me what you want, dear love. I'm glad I've had this time away from you, to make me see that I must have a good time when I'm with you. I've decided that from now on I'm going to have fun with you all of the time; that I'm not going to just work all the time. You must get enough help so that you are free to run around and do things with me. I adore you, my own little lovely complement. Now I'm going to my lonely pallet. I wish the night were over- and the next, and next, and next, and that it were the 12th.
Your Linus
[written in top left corner of 2nd page]
Camel's hair blanket- back of car (trunk) I think.
I've read about Elysian Park